a world apart

i tried to have a cute little world map picture up here but i couldn't get it to work so drain...so anyway...where we live and where i am going in a few weeks(africa!!) are a world apart. i know it could be alot further but i feel like a WHOLE ocean separating me from everything i know is pretty far. it's so crazy...i feel like i am already starting to love the people that i am going to interact with...even though i have never met them. i'm scared for real...but SO ready to be there. i know how much bigger Jesus is than my fear. i was with a sweet friend tonight talking about this journey and what i most want to get out of it and i really can't wait for the Father to fully reveal Himself to me. I get so sidetracked and unfocused here when life is going on...and Jesus has most definitely shown Himself to be faithful and evident in my life, especially over the past few months. i can't wait for times with Him to be so real, and raw and exciting and scary, joyful and i am sure painful. i heard this song on the radio today and i am officially obsessed. i don't think the words could be any more exact for what i am feeling right now...

If I saw you on the street

And you said come and follow me

But I had to give up everything

All I once held dear and all of my dreams

Would I love you enough to let go

Or would my love run dry

When you asked for my life

When did love become unmoving

When did love become unconsuming

Forgetting what the world has told me

Father of love, you can have me

If you're all you claim to be

Then I'm not loosing anything

So I will crawl upon my knees

Just to know the joy of suffering

I will love you enough to let go